The races start up again soon.

Looks like oil to me.

You can see it here, it's just... wow.

Damn

Rain, crosswinds, crashes and me trying to ride in a ditch to keep up. Yeah I lasted 20km and figured I should get warm. I should have stayed, they paid 50 deep and after 4 5km laps I would say half the field was gone.

Why do I even try?

I don't do this, this or this. I've never seen a doping control van here, I know riders are juiced in some way. But yet I try? It's like trying to ride up a slippery berg never to reach the top. I mainly do it for fun, but I have dreams and goals too and would like a fair go at it.

This is a messed up "sport".

I think I'm going to pick up competitive disk golf where I know it's ok to be doped up. Then I'll be able to spend more time with my girlfriend, family and friends.

It's raining here and I'm just a little antsy and frustrated.

I need to race soon.

Easy day.

Seven hour work day on the bike.

Well I've only been here a few days and I'm not sure my internal clock is working yet. I keep waking up at 3am thinking it’s time to start my day. But my legs feel good I wanted to get started early. Of course I had to ride to the race 1.5hrs. The race itself started like most of the races here... me off the front! haha I'm an idiot. Things started to come around and I was feeling stronger towards the end. I just wasn't sure of my legs so I didn't go with the moves that stuck. It's kind of a bummer I finished a few laps early in a group of about 30. But at no point was I in trouble, just didn’t trust the legs. Once I knew we weren't going to catch the 1st or 2nd group I went to the front to get some hard efforts in.

Next race will be Tuesday. each race should get better as I trust my legs more. It's a good thing I rode all year in the big gears, I think my Sram rep friend is going to have to send me a new 11 after a month or two. “I’m a beast” fyi I didn’t say that…

I think I have more stories to tell just in this one day then I did all of last year! haha I love this place.

Everywhere I look I think of you.

First race... I think.

23/05/2010- LAUWE (W) 1.12B - ind.reg.wedstr.(100-120 km) Elite z.c./U23

Belgium

Marc and Els kicked everything off with a BBQ. It's good to be home. It's like I never left.
I miss Rachel already... ahhh sad I know.

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I slept almost all night and feel good. I've been going on easy rides and should be racing in the next few days.

Almost home

I'm off again on the great adventure of life. If feels like my entire life was built around going to Belgium this time around. Last time I was there they kept on asking me if I was coming back. I had no doubt in my mind I was. I'm super excited, in love and a lot stronger. Looking back, I had a good first year there. I was humbled and even cried at one point, but did well in a lot of races. I would like to get into the top 10s and if I can do that... I could win a smaller race (FYI pipe dreams aren't bad). I have high goals this year.

I'll write when I get there.

Thank you all for your support and maybe look for me on Pez in a couple months...

10 Days...

15 Days...

and a few days less for my one and only Opus. And this time I haven't taken a few weeks off the bike...

18 days...

till the racing season begins.